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I just wish I could have a full day of fun without having to fight back tears when I think of how happy everyone else is at that moment. It's like I feel like I am just pretending to be happy sometimes and that makes me even more depressed. I pretend though because people are worried about me, I don't know why; I'm so depressed but the worse thing I do is cry randomly. I am not one to even think about suicide...which is something I like about myself I guess. When I randomly start crying though my mom freaks; like I'm not aloud to be depressed. What really pisses me off is when she talks about sending me to Mississippi...like that would make me feel BETTER! No that would be the worst thing to happen to me right now. Now if we went to Orlando for the Harry Potter Diagon Alley....lol no but seriously I wanna go SO badly! Harry Potter is good for me right now lol!