Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Songs Heal!

Sometimes there are no words to find. There is no way to put the things you are feeling into words. This doesn't mean they are not there. If you are feeling this way look to the songs. Songs heal. Sometimes the things you are feeling are already put into words by the famous singer songwriters of the world today. Katy Pery, Adel, One Direction, Boys Like Girls, The Gym Class Heroes, Kelly Clarkson, and even Disturbed or Slipknot. You can get inspiration from any song as long as it really means something to you.

This one is very inspirational to me.

All my life i've had people from school saying I'm not pretty enough, don't wear enough make-up, have TOO full of a figure. Some day I want someone to say this to me and it not be someone related to me or my friends. I want to be called beautiful just once and that's why "What makes you beautiful" by One Direction is inspiring to me. Listen to it and know, if you feel the same way I do, then you are not alone.


A roller coaster and my random ramblings!

"Life is a constant roller coaster. You're gonna throw up sometimes and when you do, you effect everyone around you. You're stuck there until the ride is done. You have to go through it with enthusiasm or you'll have a heart attach. The world doesn't revolve around you and the people in it count on you not to scream in their ear while you're there."
~Danielle Standford

Friday, May 18, 2012

Random Short Story

Using the famous quote from the movie The Sixth Sense: "I see dead people!" There are numerous differences between me and the boy from the movie though. First of all...I'm not a boy, which I hope is obvious to people. Second, I'm not that young anymore. Plus, the cliches he uses for when he sees the dead people are stupid. It doesn't get cold in the room, the lights don't dim, and most of the ghosts just want to talk. They love to be seen just as much as a weird kid in highschool...which is me so I can kind of relate.


"I don't want to hide anymore but I don't know how to stop." ~Danielle Standiford


"I see the world differently, but isn't that true for everyone else?"
~Danielle Standiford

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

The Crickets and a brothers influence!

I heard the crickets chirping last night. It's one of my favorite noises in the world. Of course, like everyone, the reasons we like certain things are because of the memories those senses are tied to. The crickets, to me, remind me of summer. Reminds me of restful nights, no cares in the world, family, and most of all....fun. In fact, when I was really young my older brother, Dusty, convinced me that we were going to run away and that the only thing we were going to be able to eat were crickets. Yes....my brother made me EAT a CRICKET!!! It's okay though because he ate one, too. Lol, I love summer.

Friday, May 11, 2012

My dog Ginger!

This is a picture of my bother Dusty and my dog Ginger. Ginger, unfortunatly, isn't doing so well lately. We suspect that she's got arthritis in her hips but this morning.....She wouldn't get up to go to the bathroom and when she finally did get up we had to help her get down the step to outside. When we did, she yelped. I'm so worried. My parents are taking her to the vet now but I don't even know what I'll do if she has to be put down. We got her when I was five and I'm 16 now. It would just be weird without her. yeah, really wierd.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Nothing Important?

I just started thinking about how to respond when someone asks you how you are doing. I know the appropriate thing to say is "fine" but people even say it when they're not. What I really don't like though is when people say "Nothing Important". What does that even mean? What might not be that important to you might be very important to someone else. Try this next time someone asks you that question, try saying the truth. Try, explaining to them how your life has really been, or don't say anything at all. "how are you" shouldn't be a in-passing comment that's used instead of just "hi". It's something you ask someone you really care for. Someone you really want to know how their life has been.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Giving Up!

Now, you might think of me bad for this but I will tell you why after I explain the situation.

My friend (so and so) has a problem with cutting. My other friends and I have been trying to help this friend for a while. Trying to get her counciling, trying to make her understand that she's beautiful without having a guy to tell her so.(not lesbo or by, just saying). Trying not to get herself pregnant with the next boyfriend because we know she's trying to do that. Trying to not let her throw her life away. Trying to just be there for her....but after a while.... I gave up!

Before you get mad or pissed off at me, let me explain.

You see, after everything my friends and I did, she stopped listening. She would get back together with the guy she had just harmed herself over. She would start dating another guy sometimes less than two weeks later (never over two weeks). She would ignore us when we told her we were there for her. And I noticed that while she was going down....she was dragging me down with her. I was getting depressed to the point I thought of offing MYSELF. So, I gave up to save myself. Does that make me a bad person? Even if she didn't listen to me, does that make me a bad person to just give up on her? Seriously! If you reading this, I really want to know. Comment below...Please.


I'm being pushed into doing something. I don't know if you could call it peer presure when it's a teacher that's making you do it. First of all, so you don't freak out, it's not anything bad. Second, it's not that I don't wanna do it, it's that I'm not interested. Just saying, I'm not gonna tell you what it is because I know my friend wants to do it and I'm just that kind of person. It's not like doing this is really going to effect my life in any way I just have no intrest in this particular thing. Plus, I don't want to start any un-necessary dramma. Who, would? Seriously? I really hate those people that really strive for the drama. They're annoying because that's all that they think about. Anyway, I'm rambling. What I just wanted to say is that you're welcom to the particular friend that I'm doing this for, even though you don't know that I'm doing it, and that this isn't the first time I'm doing it. Oh, and to my friends that read this blog, no I'm not going to tell you who the friend is. Even if you ask. lol :)

Thursday, May 3, 2012

My Secrets

I finally came up with enough courage to write down some of my secrets. I say some because I don't want people to know EVERTHING about me, which leads me to my first secret.

1. I'm afraid of what people will think of me, so I don't let them know everthing about me.
2. I'm afraid of not making something of my life.
3. I'm afraid of being alone my whole life.
4. I'm afraid of settling with the first guy to say I'm beautiful.
5. I'm afraid of being poor.
6. Nobody knows what happened....yeah lets just put it like that.
7. I don't like to cry infront of people, which sometimes makes me look like a bitch.
8. I'm a sensitive person, but only my friends know it. (and only because I told them I was)
9. I don't wear shorts at school because I'm afraid of people thinking the same thing that I do.
10. I wear black, not because I want to be ignored, but becuase I want to be noticed.
11. I constantly fight my shyness. If it was up to me I'd be in my room reading in a corner all the time.
12. I started reading so much to get away from reality.

Post below the secrets that apply to you. I dont need sympathy, I just don't want to be alone in this.

13. I don't like sympathy because I don't like dealing with emotions.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012


So today in PSR (personal social responsibility) we were coming up with ideas for a bullying prevention project for our school and we watched some postsecret videos of google and youtube. The videos really made me realize that I have a lot of problems!!! But there are other people with the same problems. I'm not gonna tell you my secrets though, im gonna actually send them out to this guy maybe. It would be nice to tell someone (who wont know it's me) all the problems I've been keeping secret for years now. Secrets that I've kept inside since I was 5 and litterally never told ANYBODY. Secrets that would be good to confess to... If you feel the same way.... maybe you should try it too!

"PostSecret is an ongoing community art project where people mail
in their secrets anonymously on one side of a homemade postcard.
PostSecret, 13345 Copper Ridge Road, Germantown, MD 20874, USA"

To see more information go to http://www.postsecret.com/